I Know You Don't Want to Hear This Now

I hate this topic. I am the queen of not wanting to let things go. Ask the first guy I ever fell in love with - it took me years to let go and realize that it just wasn't meant to be. I'll probably never be completely over the one man that I consider to be the love of my life. It's a very sad, ridiculously sappy story for another blog because this blog is all about how to let go. When it is all said and done, letting go is painful, but possible.

I recently started working on an art project that includes those "missed connections" that you see printed in the newspaper or on craigslist. Some of these posts are amazingly romantic - it's just people who want to find that person that makes them feel something. I just wish that life always worked out the way it does in movies - but it doesn't and letting go... well, maybe I can't really talk about that. My Pandora just started playing "Save Tonight" by Eagle Eye Cherry - the one song that always reminds me of that first Love- when we ran through the rain, laughing - when we carved our initials on the bridge over the river - when we niavely thought we'd be together our entire lives.

I guess there is a difference between letting someone go, because you realize he just isn't right for you and remembering the good times and stubbornly hanging on to something because you want it to be. Now is the time to stop and ask yourself if you're hanging on because you think it'll work, or if you're hanging on because you stubbornly refuse to accept the fact that it's just not meant to be.

The Beginning

So, I've been trying to write this first post for weeks. I do this all the time - you should see my first myspace blog, it's ridiculous. Anyway, I've decided that in order to start this blog, I'll just start this blog. I think it's important to fill in the blanks about my extensive dating history... it gives this blog some credibility, but I'm afraid my crazy life won't allow me to follow any set time line, so the stories will come as they will.

Besides, I have way to much going on in my dating/love life right now to waste time telling you about my first kiss and the first boy I actually dated!

That and I just bought 4 boxes of chocolate filled with wine (hell yes!) and I'm way too excited about those to just blog about some random men. Oh and while you click on that link to look at the chocolates, I bought mine from www.woot.com. The bargain hunters dream site - everyday is a different dealio.

I will get to that though. Oh yes... those stories will come. As will stories involving my dear friends, because everyone needs friends and some great guest blogs!